Sitting still.

I often find myself comparing myself to others.

As much as I try it's not an easy habit to break.

From body parts and clothes to wallet sizes.

Constantly stacking myself up next to them.

I have the flip-flopping self esteem of a female.

Especially when asked the old stand-by,

"So, what are you doing with yourself?".

I can't remember how many times I've found myself fumbling for something legitimate sounding.
Some excuse as to why I haven't returned to school.
"Haven't thought much more of working towards your degree?
The thing is I have.
I've thought about it plenty, and it is something I would like to do.
Eventually.
While it may seem to you as a lack of motivation or procrastination on my part...
I am doing things.
Currently.
Small things maybe, but they're just as important as the rest.
Why should I feel guilty about sleeping?
Why is it that I feel the need to justify exploring my creatvity?
Or sitting still?
Or reading books?
I now see the importance behind everything I do.
Learning how to live with someone again is excting.
It's brand new...again.
Hopefully permanent.
I put myself wholly into everything try.
I am aware this isn't, by any means, an original thought.
I've been witness to people recognizing these things many times.
How often though do we stick with it?
Keep within the mindset healthiest for us?
See the value in all we do?
I'm beginning to see that it's rare.
My wish is to continue to not take what I have for granted.
To each day wake up and appreciate everything.
Because it is beautiful.
And I am so thankful for all of it.